So, I finally collected every story I have posted so far and put them together. Most of the stories are German, but there are going to be more English ones in the future.





English

( Supernatural )

( Drabbles )

German/Deutsch

( Eigene Serie )
( Harry Potter )
( RPS/CW RPS )
( Supernatural )
( andere Fandoms )
( untitled Prosa/Drabbles )

I've just got over the 15k mark today for my AU BigBang!

I feel like maybe I can make it.



Short snippet from the beginning, one of my favourite scenes already:

Both brothers turned to the four figures entering the room, hesitantly but determined nonetheless. Dean sighed inwardly as his eyes fell onto the older woman. She had tried to tell him that she was his mother but he wouldn't buy it, not in a hundred years. His mother has been blond, small and gorgeous and he remembered her quite well, thank you very much. It was almost presumptuous that demons or whoever directed this play thought he could be fooled that easily. Only a few days back he stood in front of his real mother, no way this woman could compete with her.

When he shot them a warning look he caught glimpse of the younger woman in the group, shrinking back behind her older brother.

"We came to say good-bye to ...our son," the older man said with a short look in Dean's direction but mostly adressing Sam. Which was weird in itself. Dean tried to hold back from snarling at the guy.

But Sam only sat there non-committedly, waving for them to go ahead. Sam would never learn not to trust other people, would he?

"We're really sorry, but under the given circumstances we think it would be better for us to go back. There doesn't seem to be anything we can do," the man now told Dean, looking truly hurt under his strong-man-attitude.

"Damn right you should. Better scram before we hunt you down."

"Dean!" Sam shot warningly and Dean turned towards him.

"What? I'm just saying," he gave back, but Sam looked really worried so Dean tried his hardest to calm down.

"Whatever," this back to the family in front of him. "Nice of you to come, pleasure to meet you and whatnotelse. Now if you please," he indicated towards the door, "I need my beauty sleep."

"Dean!" hissed Sam again but this time Dean only ignored him, staring hard and unyielding into the man's eyes and slowly into everybody else's. Suddenly the man who had spoken so far turned towards his younger brother.

"Jared, could we speak to you for a sec?" Sam seemed a little uneasy but he went as soon as he was called and Dean only shouted after him: "I'm not coming to rescue your white ass!"

Then the door shut behind them.

Since I found out that Melissa Etheridge is gay I can't stop listening to her song 'Like the way I do'. I loved the song before but now it's almost an obsession. And I love this live version of it. It's so powerful and her voice sounds even better at certain parts...






Is it weird that I crack up every time I read my BB-icon? IDK, it seems so appropriate... XD

First day at my job today. It's a little overwhelming but I think I'm getting a grip on it fast. I'm no longer just sitting at home, wondering what to do with my day. XD


And I'm writing on my BB again! \o/
I hate writer blocks in the middle of something important, especially when I could use some cheering up by accomplishing something. Luckily it's over, I knocked down the 10k barrier yesterday and it felt pretty awesome.

I realized (again) that it's not how I tell the story, but what story I tell that makes it worth it. I came to a deadlock a while ago because I was trying too hard to write a different style from how the story came to me, that it was a horror to write because nothing was good enough. Surely it's a good thing to have role models but I admire them mostly because they're not like me, but if I can't write anymore because I struggle with writing like them, then it failed the point, right? They're my models because I want to learn from them, but I can never be them and that's good. Understanding that is freeing.

Title: Where there's smoke, there's fire
Author: kain_abel
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They're real, this is not.
Characters/Pairing: Jensen/Jared, Sandy
Warnings: AU, smoop
Length: ~3500 words
Written: 30./31. October 09
Summary: Jared's being watched.
Author's Notes: Written for insane_songbird's birthday a long, long time ago. She also made this awesome banner to her story!
I'm no native speaker so any remaining mistakes aren't supposed to be there, I just couldn't find them. ;D




Where there's smoke, there's fire

Looks like I'm gonna be busy this weekend. My mom celebrates her birthday. -.- I'm kind of unexcited. (Probably because I had to do a lot of the preparations and will have to look out for everything to go over well during the next two days.) Doesn't help that I don't want to see a few people that are coming.

Aside from that, I'm still writing (sometimes) just not on my Big Bang... I don't know what's wrong, but the story feels lame and I believe I can't do it justice either way. The characterization kicks my ass and nothing goes according to plan.
Plus, I realized today that I have to start on my other Big Bang some time soon or I won't have time for both, but I don't want to start before I finished my first one.

I just want this weekend to be over and everything to work out. And I have to get up again in four hours. I hate it.

So I've been writing today for dugindeep's

A Post Secret Comment!Fic Meme!
finishing up 4 seperate stories.

And just when I got halfway through my last story my dad cut off our phone-line. >.<° IDEK, but I can't recieve calls anymore, I can't use the Internet. The only positive thing is that I can still call others from home... Now I have to wait until our phone company sends us whatever has broken. And I fear that it probably takes a week! *freaks*

Now I'm sitting at my friend's PC to get the stories out.
Life sucks.

Only got back from the cinema where I saw 'Avatar' and now I'm dying to read a J2 adaption of it.
And although I'd've loved to see Jensen as the soldier and Jared as Neytiri, I have to agree with my friend (reluctantly) that Jared would make the better soldier, not only because of his clumsiness. Just please don't, DON'T make it bottom!Jensen. I can't take another fic with Jensen being the girl in every way.

Is there a possibility that someone would write it? For me? Please?
I am absolutely not above begging on this one. Pretty please with sugar on top?

Note to myself: Don't try two-layered compliments. They only get misunderstood for criticism.


-I feel weirdly detached to everything around me-